Blah, argh, & phooey

Sorry to vent to you two, and it's my same ol sob story I always have, but no money sucks!! This week we're only about $100 short to get by for the week. Sounds good, right? Well, it would be, if we weren't a couple K in the hole!

$600-ish to Propane
$325-month behind house
$350-ish past due AT&T
$400-ish 2011 property taxes (2012 probably due soon, so yeah, great timing!)

And the $800-1000 in medical CRAP that I don't think I'll ever get caught up on.

So yeah, it's just...yeah. Doug tells me not to worry about it, we'll figure it out. When? Where? Does he have money that's going to fly outta his hiney when we least expect it? Yes, I have faith in God to take care of me, but really? Does it have to be with the constant stress of being broke all the time? Can't we have a break where I have money in the bank for OH CRAP moments?

And, of course, there's the $16K that my mom has lent us in relation to our house. Let's not forget that!! No, never! Granted, she hasn't & won't say a word about it. But I know it's there! And it haunts me! I'd play the lottery, but I can't afford the flippin tickets! Is that not sad?

And we make TOO MUCH to get assistance for food. I could maybe get WIC, but at this point...I don't know that it'd help enough! I make my own stuff to save money here & there, & it seems as if the hole gets DEEPER, even though I'm spending less! I'm tracking my spending using mint.com & it SAYS I have an extra $300+ a month!? Where? Really? In what reality is it operating? *sigh*

Sorry you two. I think I've been whining about money for years now & you just keep listening to it. Thank you! *hugs*